Starry Eyed | Ellie Goulding

I freaking love this song. It’s so easy to dance to. I even like the remixes. And Ellie Goulding is freaking amazing because if you listen to her sing this song live she sounds the exact same. Its hard to find artists that can do that these days.

Ahh, last weekend was amazing. I went to the two night pretty lights/ bassnectar show. Front row, both nights. It went so hard. It was so much fun. Pretty Lights has stolen my heart now and i’m obssessed with his music and HIM. He is beautiful. Its too bad he has a girlfriend. I’m going to another one of his shows on Halloween in Nashville so that should be fun. I’m dressing up as an indian.

Nothing is going on in my love life right now. I’ve stopped talking to M completely. Sad, but true. I couldn’t take the drama anymore..I just wasn’t happy. And I know i couldn’t have been making him happy. We were both just bad habits to each other. I also gave up on J. He is just not ready for a commitment. He is too scared of it right now and has much to much going on in his life that I just can’t be apart of. So this is the first time in my life that I do not have a crush on ONE SINGLE PERSON. And thats weird…thats really weird. anywho, i’ll write more later. :)

listen to zee song :) and buy it on itunes!

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Chin Music for the Unsuspecting Hero | Foster the People

I GET TO SEE FOSTER THE PEOPLE IN 11 days!!!! WOOO! not shit is going on in my life right now. I havn’t updated on this blog in so long cause i’ve been doing my other blog : firstlovelastloveonlyluv.tumblr.com (follow me on there too!) but anyways, boys suck. i want one for myself…but they still suck. all of them. i want to find one that doesn’t :) till then i’m just gonna be excited about seeing foster the people and pray that the drummer mark sees me in the crowd and we fall madly in love <3

I Would Do Anything For You | Foster the People

This is the sweetest/cutest song ever. I fucking love it. Sorry I have not written in a while but i’ve been super busyy. I went to A fabulous college party last weekend which was so much fun. I havn’t laughed that hard in a long time to be honest. AND I didn’t get overly shwasted to where I couldnt walk so that was good. So it was a pretty good time.

This song is so freaking amazing. It makes me want to fall in love so bad. When I listened to it I pictured the guy I have a crush on mouthing the words and dancing for me. Haha…it was a good visual. I really don’t know what else to say…so i’m just gonna shut up. LISTEN TO DA MUSIC.

Our Deal | Best Coast

Heres the deal…I don’t chase after people. They have to chase after me. It’s how I was taught. That girls don’t go after boys, the boys come after the girls. But last friday, a lot of shit went down resulting to my friends dropping off the guy I like at his house and then going back to a party without him. It killed me, but I still wanted to have fun. To get straight to the point, I was really intoxicated, left the party, hooked up with one of my good guy friends at 5 in the morning in some parking lot (still a virgin, thank god), saw ”j” (guy I like) walking down the road towards us, dressed as quickly as I could, then RAN after him. Thankfully, he didn’t see anything. He grabbed me though and held me and told me how much he liked me and cared about me and how it just wasn’t the right time right now for him because he had a lot of family stuff going on. God, I wanted to melt. I felt like such a bitch for hooking up with his friend. Not to mention I had a hickey on my neck that i’m PRAYING he didn’t notice. But fuck…I wish he knew how much I cared about him. I tried telling him but I just don’t think he gets it. I know my actions show differently but had I of known he cared that much about me too I would have never done it. Not to mention the guy I hooked up with is the hottest guy in our city hands down. But that doesn’t matter because I like “J”..A lot. I’m just an idiot sometimes.

Boyfriend | Best Coast

“I wish he was my boyfriend, I wish he was my boyfriend..I’d love him till the very end but instead he is just a friend. I wish he was my boyfriend.”

Ohh how I wish. I’ve tried my best to try and tell myself that seeing him was nothing and that it wouldn’t change anything, but once again when I think about him my heart just sinks. Not to mention when I find out he was asking about me and where I was and why I wasn’t there two nights ago. I didn’t answer my friend “G“‘s call cause I was already home. Had I had known that “J” wanted to see me then it would have been a whole other story. I’m trying to talk myself down and tell myself I don’t need him because the thing is, I KNOW me and him wont end up together. It’s just a feeling. But I can’t get over the feelings I’m having for him NOW. He doesn’t even have to do anything and I just fall foor him all over again. I hate it. I regret going to his house to see him almost because now it’s just gonna be pain all over again when he STILL wont do anything but lead me on. I was over it. OVER IT. Yes, I still cared about him but I was over the whole liking him. He’s the one guy i’ve met here that just seems to get me. I can actually be myself around him and that says something cause I can be pretty freaking weird. hmph..this is song is the song I listened to on repeat after we had an almost kiss. (we’ve only hooked up 2 times..thats not enough for me. sorry.) I had a bottle of wine and was in my bubble bath and just sang my little heart out. Over and over. Don’t judge. We all feel desprate sometimes. I just wish he’d stop being scared to open himself up to me.

Airplanes| Local Natives

“I want you back, back, back..YOU BACK”

FUCK, FUCK, FUCK…I just saw the guy that I liked..well now offically LIKE again..a few minutes ago. I couldn’t stand not seeing him so I just went up to his door and knocked and I saw him dancing in his boxers all by himself all cute and stuff and I just wanted to grab and kiss him. And when he saw him he got the biggest smile on his face and gave me a huge hug. I didn’t want to let go. I was so happy to see him. I asked him to hang out and we hung out for like an hour and a half then I had to go home but my friend “P” drove him home…I was kinda jealous about that but I gave him a hug/kiss on the cheek bye and all was good. OUT OF SIGHT OUT OF MIND is a real thing. I thought I was over him but oh, fucking, no. ughhh. what should I doooooooo? Listen to zee song beech.

p.s. still working on http://belle-vitae.tumblr.com ‘s play list. its gonna be rockinnn.

Demons | Fenech-Soler

Ok, i know i’ve been posting a lot of Fenech-Soler but i just keep on hearing songs by them and then I just keep on liking them. it’s not my fault that they are awesome. I could dance to this song 30 times a day and not be tired of it. I tend to do that, dance a lot i mean. I put on my pandora and then just go at it. Nothing special —even though i took dance for 15 years— just some jumping around dropping it low on occassions and twirling. Its just fun, what can I say. LAST NIGHT was so much fun. I saw so many people I hadn’t seen in a long time and it really just made my day. One of my new friends boyfriends keeps texting me and stuff saying he wants to see me…I can’t be mean so i’m like, “Yeah! we should totallllly hang out sometime with your girlfriend and stuff!” and then hes all like..”Yeah, well i wanna see you.” So that doesn’t really help but oh well. I’m not hooking up with my friends guys anymore. I usually don’t do that, in fact I never had and didn’t plan on it but my BEST FRIEND EVER…well she liked the guy I liked all year but I didn’t tell her I liked him and she talked about him all the time. (It was really annoying cause I liked him so much too) And then one night at a party I was flirting with him, but to be honest I flirt with everyone, and then on the ride back home, (Her sober and driving, me and him drunk), we hooked up. I know it sounds horrible..and I felt horrible. She forgave me because we were drunk but I had to eventually tell her that I liked him. But that didn’t happen till after she had started liking this other guy…and then we were in the car again and me and HIM hooked up too and she was mad again…But to give my credit I tried pushing him off a lot of times but to put it lightly he is god-like hot so it was kinda hard. Even so, I told him no the whole time cause the guy I liked was sitting in the front seat pissed off at him. Anyways, after all the guys got out of the car she was sooo pissed and I explained I pushed him off the whole time and then told her finally that I liked the guy she USED to like. Whew, that took a lot of explaining, but I’M NOT A BAD PERSON and my goal is not to go around and steal peoples men. It just happened. Idk how I got on this subject now soooo…i’m gonna quit. Listen to the song :D

Balloons | The Foals

Besides The Maccabees, The Foals are probably one of my favorite bands. I literally have never heard a bad song by them. So anyways, ‘M’, we have not talked in 3 days. I told him we were done. I thought it would be harder on me..and for a little bit it was, but I’ve finally got over it. It’s not me and him being through that hurts, even though we talked for 3 years, It’s the thought of him forgetting about me and moving on. Going days where I don’t cross his mind. THATS what hurts. My mom thinks i’m upset. She says i’ve been quiet ever since me and him have stopped talking but I don’t think thats true. I feel fine. He was just a huge part of me for the longest time and I’m having to adjust that he isn’t around anymore. I’ll always care about him and i’ll always love him even if i’m not “in” love with him, But sometimes you just have to end things before they get worse. Keep them on a semi good note so you don’t hate that person forever. I did what was right. I did it for me, and I KNOW it was the right choice.

Teleport Massive | Bassnectar

“…Plus, herb inhalator…”

God I can’t fucking wait for this concert. It’s going to be so fucking rediculously epic…I don’t even know what to say. Plus PRETTY LIGHTS and BEATS ANTIQUE! rahhhhh. I’m gonna womp womp womp. I found this bad ass light up string that i’m going to sew to all my clothes..or what little clothes I wear anyway (it gets fucking hot at those concerts and you dance the whole time.) I lost like 7 pounds from ONE Bassnectar show that I went to back when school was still going on. And this is Bassnectar, Pretty Lights and MORE. It’s going to be an orgasim of dubstep!! Anyways…yeah…I have stuff to post about “M” later on but for right now i’m going to forget about him and be a basshead.

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Lies | Fenech-Soler

So “M”, the guy i’ve been talking to for 3 years that doesn’t live here, told me today he doesn’t think we have a future. So i’m like, fuck that, i’m leaving your ass. So thats exactly what I’m doing. Of course, I’m going to have to have the help from my friends to not contact him back. I care about him so freaking much  and its going to be hell for me but I can’t do this anymore. I can’t give my love away for nothing. I have to move on from him too. It hurts but it’s for my own good. Besides that, this song is fucking amazing. I think i’m in love with this band. And if you have a Pandora account I suggest you get a Fenech-Soler radio cause its an awesome one…besides Calvin Harris…who is going to be at the music festival Electric Zoo in New York!!!! AHHHH i wanna go so bad. So anyways, listen to the song…not my blabbing. :)